WARNING: Foul launguage
Drabble Numero Uno...
For Once it Had Nothing
Living in the cell was like living in a dreamy haze, it was far too dark to feel anything close to real. Almost like a repeating nightmare, pain had been a routine; it was like putting on clothes, loading a gun.
Dorchette had been the only one of us who remained spirited and kept struggling. He had attacked guards many times. Knocking them to the ground, doing his best to make them bleed, to punish them the way he was being punished. Every one of his attempts had eventually ended up with him face first, smeared in blood on the ground of the cell, gasping heavily.
It wasn’t until our fusion was officially complete that even his spirit was finally broken, until it soon disappeared completely.
Occasionally, one or two of us would awake at night on the cold cell floor, in a sweat… feeling the animals we now had within snarling and growling with fear and confusion. I included.
My body would feel tangled and empty. I wanted to slither. No I wanted to stand… I wondered why these limbs were attached to me though my other half knew they were very well supposed to be there. When this happened I would make inhuman hisses, my body would move in ways that weren’t natural. That snake wanted out... and god dammit… I wanted it out too.
I could feel the snake’s thoughts... its pain of having to be fused with me... and then there was the odd feeling that it could feel mine as well. Its thoughts were quick and often changed rapidly.
Sharing my body had taken much getting used to. I had had to learn to ignore the snake’s cries from within me. Or my cravings for mice and meat… meat and blood. No, no I can’t eat blood… people do not eat blood.
That’s what I would think to the creature… I would try to share with it what people did and did not do. It was more for me then for the snake. The snake would just hiss and curl up, my limbs tangled with its. I admired and hated it for being able to control us despite the situation. When it was tired we would sleep… when it was hungry we would eat though I would try my best to ignore its cries for blood. It would cause me to hiss which was embarrassing as hell for me, though I knew Dorchette and Roa both did it as well when they thought nobody could see them. I doubted it was a matter of being half bull or half-dog; hiding was simply a matter of being men.
This made me smile.
One day. I slept on the concrete floor with my limbs tangled into each other. Hearing faint howls in the night. They had taken Dorchette again was what I had guessed. I thought this, feeling nothing about it. Like a good little military girl. Remembering something an officer had told me. That worrying to much about a comrade… was an insult to how strong they were. And Dorchette was damn strong.
His screams halted and turned to ragged gasps… He was alive.
The soldiers approached with Dorchette in their arms. By this time he was unconscious, but, yes, alive, so very much alive. They pointed their guns at my comrades sleeping bodies. This made the snake protective, frozen yet ready to strike at any time. I heard the ear shattering sound of metal clashing against metal. They threw Dorchette down onto the floor, paying no attention to his injuries. By now... the snake had made up its mind before I could change it back.
It forced my body up, hissing and shaking. My mind held no reason… My body held no limits. It his and scratched against the floor. Before stretching me… My arm… wasn’t where it should have been, it was at the other end of the room... damn far from where it should have been. My hisses were inhuman and loud, angry, turning to grunts as my sounds and the snakes meshed. I could hear the guard’s laugh; one of them was aiming their gun…
I’m gonna diehssssssssssss.... Today isssssss… the day I’m going hssssssssss to die.
No... I can’t... I won’t. Not because of this fucking snake, not because I joined that god damned Special Forces unit and blew the shit out of Ishbal… This thing was an animal... why was I letting it do this? Why was I letting this thing control me?
“SHUTTTTTT hsssssssssssssssssssss UP!!”
It meant to be a thought but I just screamed, my lungs felt like they were about to give out, my head swarming, my fists dug into the ground, nails cracking. A few of my fingers were breaking. The snake was displeased it had been scolded by its alpha. Things were gonna be different around here if that stupid THING was sharing my body. It was now I realized this snake was a lot the Dorchette… it just wouldn’t give up.
So I yelled again... and this time the guards had slammed my cell shut,
“YOU HEARD ME YOU hsssssssss SLITHERING hssssss PEICE OF SHIT!!! SHUT UP!!!”
And this time it did. The snake gave one last humble hiss of displeasure, now realizing just who is alpha was and just who’s body it was dealing with now. The guards were gone now… they had lost interest in me… leaving me alone in my cell full of my, very confused comrades.
“Don’t worry. That won’t happen again.” I told my comrades with a somewhat sheepish smile,
For once it had nothing but its instinct and its body. And now it had me.