Today sucked. That's my current thought.
I've been pretty mad and somewhat depressed over this for a year now... but it took another step up, today.
Well, to explain it I'm in the band. Yeah, it's so obvious, I know. However, our school has three bands... a Concert Band (the lowest, and crappiest.), symphonic (the middle), and Wind Ensemble (to top, with the best...and some of the worst, meaning that some of them don't deserve to be in there, at all.
XD) So we have auditions every year to find out who gos into each band.
Yeah, well, being my senior year, I really wanted to be in one of the two better bands... So I practiced the audition piece, which was way to easy, by the way. (meaning that for those who worked hard it didn't really show...) So I ended up practicing a lot, because I cared so much about it. Later, I find out that after all of my hard work, after all of my hopes being up, after being the most optimistic of all... I failed.
Unfortunately, to make matters worse, the people in the higher bands get to double on something else, but that's outside of this matter, other then how much it bothered me. So anyways, the Concert Band sucks. To put it bluntly, nobody cares in there, nobody practices, people are always talking, and I'm sure nobody gives a crap about their instruments.
Well today... it decides to get 20 times worse. The flutes and clarinets, just can't play their parts, nor can they stay in tune, and trust me the out of tune flutes almost killed me today. It just makes me so mad and depressed that I worked so hard to end up in the class full of people like that, people who don't listen to each other, or even practice, ever. It got so bad it even made the band director mad, saying we're all going to 4s at the contest. (it's fathomable, I can see it happening, seeing as we suck.) and then he went on and on about how they're a shame... Yes, well he needs to wake up. The whole band class is a shame, the whole thing about me working hard and not getting paid fairly is a true shame... and I think I was cheated out. I don't think they like me, and I know that. I know that our band has politics, and more then likely that's what happened. I should be in a higher band, but they don't care.
So I come into lunch, after being so angry all day. Seriously, it doesn't get much angrier then this. I'm so mad, still. Just the whole deal that I'm in there... it drives me insane. Anyways, the person I'm sitting with decides it'd be funny to just randomly laugh at me for being in the Concert Band. We're pretty much equal in skill I'd say, so I have no idea how he ended up in Symphonic. So he goes on and tells me that I suck, and the reason that I didn't get put higher was because I didn't try hard
. Okay, you know what? That sent me off. I was so freaking pissed that I grabbed his milk (which he gets really mad when I mess with it because it isn't very cheap.) and I slam it into the trash can, and you know, I'm not
paying him back. Perhaps he was just joking around... but he picked the wrong thing to be joking around about. Of course he probably finds it funny since it was just his milk. But I probably won't be speaking with him for a while.
Yeah, so that was my terrible day.
I went way off there, but at least I explained everything and I needed somewhere to vent, because I've been very pissed today.
To top that off there's something wrong with my bassoon. Yes. It's not a huge deal like the saxophone, but because of it I can't really practice until I contact my bassoon teacher.
I'm sorry. I really did type to much... Sorry! XD