QUOTE (Luxuria-Cat @ Dec 19 2010, 11:03 AM)
^ Wow, that's a really interesting analysis. I agree with it too, I've always thought that Envy made such an androgynous but cute form so that people would be attracted by looks, possibly to distract himself/itself from his true form and real feelings about himself?
And yeah, I agree that the homunculi could be capable of love...I'm curious about your explanation though.
Envy never truly thought highly of himself. He tried to give himself a false sense of security by making himself/itself look the way it did.
I understand the feeling very well. A bit personal here but....well I was born more obviously different than most people since I was born with a red birthmark on my face which most people mistake for a burn scar(you probably can't tell in all of my pictures, like the ones in my set since the lighting is bright and doesn't show it really...it's more obvious in this picture for example: http://frigida.homestead.com/files/BlackWig9.jpg
) but I always felt different because of that and was treated different by a lot of other humans. For a long time I wanted to be like other humans. Especially because even my own parents made me feel like the birthmark was a curse and made me less of a person. They tried to get rid of it, for good reasons since they wanted me to be able to fit in with other people....but at the same time it made me feel like the mark was bad and that I should hate myself. And that even they didn't love me the way I was and wanted a different child since they were trying to change the way I look. The first surgery traumatized me too since I wasn't put to sleep for it and they use a laser to BURN up the blood vessels under my skin. It felt like my face was burning off and that's either the first or second memory of my life.
For many years I hid behind a mask of fake-ness. I totally hid the mark with make-up and my insecurity about it was so extreme that I didn't even let my family see me without the make-up on. I would even sleep with the blankets over my head at night. And I'd scream "No!" if anyone almost saw my face without the make-up hiding the birthmark. I don't always see make-up as fake but just in my case I did because I knew I was hiding a serious difference under it...unlike most people. When I wear my eye make-up that doesn't make me feel like I'm hiding something. Perhaps because everyone can tell I'm wearing it.
I hated myself and to a degree I still hate myself...but I felt even worse when I hid the way I truly look. I felt like no one was loving me for who I truly was. It never made me feel better to hide it, even though I used to stupidly hope it would.
I feel like Envy would feel the most loved if someone actually loved it and admired it in it's true form. I just used my own experience to explain why I believe that would be the case with Envy.
Anyway, since you wanted me to...okay I'll explain how I think Envy could potentially love a human. LOL. It's going to be a long explanation...
Well first of all....I can see Envy taking a human hostage and keeping the person somewhere to mess with them in some way. He likes to dominate humans so I can see him doing that. He could keep this person locked up somewhere. And what I see happening is if anyone like Ed or any of them come by and see this person trapped they'd free the person....but what if the person decides not to leave and then Envy comes back, sees that the person has been freed but hasn't left. I think Envy would be perplexed and ask the human why he/she didn't leave. And imagine if the person says that he/she loves Envy? Perhaps he/she got a hint of how Envy really feels and got feelings for Envy somehow, despite how Envy treated him/her.
If this person says he/she loves Envy though...at first I think Envy would totally freak out and perhaps slash the person down and then run off. But since Envy is pretty conflicted and might be somehow 'touched' by this even though he wouldn't want to admit it....he might go off and tell someone to go heal the person. Like Marcoh or something if they have him captured at the time. And just come up with some excuse like "Heal this person because we need this person for sacrifice/will have use for this person in the future." or something like that but the person would not be locked back up. And I think the person would leave, thinking that Envy hates him/her.
I still think Envy would feel conflicted and interested in this person. I think that Envy might watch this person from afar, wanting to make a connection but resisting at the same time. Because although Envy is lonely and wants certain things humans have...like their friendships and such, he HATES to truly admit that he feels that way inside. So he would continue to be conflicted....but in the end I think he would perhaps finally make the effort to approach this person again. And I can see Envy having a relationship with this person. It would be difficult to get him to show true love though...but I think he might start to feel that way inside over time. I certainly don't think he'd ever show it publicly though and there's no way he'd ever become all lovey dovey. lol. He's more likely to show it when the person is sleeping...he might curl up closer to the person or something.
And if he was with this human he would not allow for this human to have any relationships with other people...no friendships or anything because he'd be extremely jealous of all of that. He is envious of things to begin with but if he actually developed feelings for someone it would multiply it to the extreme if he saw anyone else even interacting with that person perhaps.
I also don't think that loving one human would change how Envy feels about them in general because I don't think there's any way Envy would truly become good, ever. I just think that in certain cases there might be a way for him to truly love someone.
Envy would not want this person he loves to see his true form(he'd probably start to cry if it happened)....but if he/she ever did and he/she loved Envy just as much and still wanted Envy....I think that Envy would feel truly loved.
Anyway I might be still forgetting something I wanted to say. XD I tried to explain as best I could though.